Hi, I’m Geochick.

Welcome to my blog. What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy and spiritual awakening. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

work work work...

This blogging thing is somewhat addictive. I can blab blab blab about absolutely nothing to my heart's content.

I had to fill out my timesheet for Friday this morning. Isn't it amazing what you can forget over 2 days? I have no flippin' idea what I did on Friday.

Yay we didn't have to drop ridiculous amounts of $$ on brunch yesterday! Apparently I sounded hesitant enough that she found somewhere else to go. Funny, my friend from Houston planned where to go to eat in Denver. I got an earful for that one. :) So far, she's the one friend I told that we're adopting who is not excited about it. I'm not sure why but I didn't ask. I know her and her husband have had issues like ours…

What's with this response to the statement that we're adopting? - them: "Where's the baby coming from?" - me: "Colorado" - them: "Good". :-? What does that mean? Like it's not 'good' if we decided to adopt internationally. *argh* People and their opinions when it comes to adoption. Announcing that you're adopting is NOTHING like announcing that you're pregnant. Why the hell can't people just be happy for you? Why do they ask, "what age", "what country", and "how much is it costing you" seconds after you announce it?

We have a baby shower to go to this Sunday. Even though we're closer to having a baby I still have mixed feelings. I think because of the above paragraph. I feel like I have to rehearse my answers to the stupid questions. On top of that I know that people at this little shindig are going to say "You'll be like so and so and get pregnant!" (they got pregnant during their adoption wait). Except I most certainly will not. Everyone has their own way to dealing with the infertility. Mine is unexplained, yes there's a better chance that eventually I'll get pg than she did who has major endo and all kinds of other issues. So I take away the uncertainty and go on the pill because I can't go every damn month thinking "hmmm...what if". By the way, this hyperpigmentation shit that's happening on my face is so NOT COOL. Besides, I did have a little bit of endo so suppressing any more growth is fine w/ me and the pill does that. ugh, maybe I'll get sick on Sunday...

Trying to Write a Letter to Expectant Parents

My idea of "brunch" and my friend's idea of "brunch"