Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

How to drop $5k in less than an hour

Buy appliances. *gak* Wait, first you need to have our kitchen. The only fridge that fits is a KitchenAid counter-depth bottom freezer. I just love love LOVE how you get less space yet it costs more $! Oh, and insist on getting a convection oven. Oops, that's pricey too. *sigh* Anyway, the fridge and range will be delivered next week - exciting! Still haven't looked too hard for a dishwasher. Anyone have recommendations? I was thinking Bosch because they are so quiet, but they tend to be more expensive (figures).

One week later almost everything is done. The counter guys come today. As with everything there's been a couple of little things gone wrong. The guy we hired has only been doing kitchens for 8 years (he's a furniture designer/woodworker) so while the cabinets look freakin' awesome there have been a couple of hiccups. He forgot to check the positioning of one of our light fixtures and the right cabinet door over the fridge hits it upon opening. Fantastic. Dummy had the nerve to ask me if we had recently replaced the light. (Yeah, our kitchen is a shambles so we thought we'd replace a light fixture now.) We installed a toe-kick heater (it's under a cabinet) to replace a wall radiator and he didn't make an access panel in the cabinet so that we can get to it when it needs to be serviced. Totally something that he should know about as a "kitchen guy". What's really got me irritated is that S brought it up after cabinets were done but not installed yet and he didn't fix it. Now that the cabinets are installed we're not sure there's anything to do about it. It would've been a pain either way but he knew about this when the cabinets were still in the shop and could've done something about it. I'm annoyed enough to push the issue because at this point, when we do need to replace or service the heater we're going to have to cut a hole in the bottom of the cabinet. Great. Given that this is the major problem we've had with this guy I'm thinking we've got it pretty easy and it's gone smoothly. I can't even imagine how crappy it would be to have a kitchen down for a couple of months!

Steroid meds ROCK. I had to pay $60 for the stupid stuff which is why I put off going to the dermatologist in the first place but after just a few days the rash is clearing up nicely. My dermatologist thinks I'm having an allergic reaction to the copious amounts of plaster dust floating around our house at present. I apparently have sensitive skin. huh.

This is a long one sorry...I just wanted to clarify for those of you who aren't in Denver and aren't seeing this story splashed across the front page every day. The scrub tech under investigation was allegedly stealing the drugs by taking a patient's syringe, shooting up then refilling the syringe with saline solution and returning it to the patient before the surgery. So, she did not have to be present during the surgery to infect people, you just had to be the lucky winner of the syringe she used. Hence the reason why thousands of former patients have to be tested.

@!$%&*!@# Contractors!