Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

The Weird Times Infertility Hits...

I've noticed that I tend to blog by jumping off from someone else's topic because reading their post brings up my own emotions and experiences.  Not sure if that's right and it makes me a little less than original but hey, whatever.

So, credit where credit is due and I read Denver Jen's blog about "Up".  I haven't seen the movie yet but at least I now am steeled against watching it because it is so weird how scenes in movies can hit like a ton of bricks. 

*spoiler alert*!
Case in point.  "Julie and Julia"  I saw this movie with a girlfriend and was merrily enthralled with Meryl Streep as Julia and totally unprepared for a 20 second scene.   When Julia gets the letter than her sister is pregnant,  I felt the punch in the gut, lump in my throat and tears.  For me the scene was so poignant and brought back the rush of emotions that I had felt about a year and half earlier when I found out my SIL was insta-pregnant with her second.  After that scene I spent a good ten minutes hoping that my friend hadn't noticed and even now, when I think about watching it the familiar lump in my throat rises up.

Just another case of the "What the hell was that!"

We're avoiding two Christmas parties this year because I'm still not up for it.  Yeah, sure I'm "paper pregnant",  but it doesn't fix infertility and most people don't understand that.

The Ubiquitous 2WW *edit*

Getting The Nursery Ready