I started this post this morning and was in a really bad mood. See paragraph No. 3; I didn't get much sleep last night. The post was turning out to be a major pity party to myself and I decided not to publish it. Here's the less bitchy version: (really, I swear, this is practically upbeat compared to what I had written earlier)
I feel a little blah. Ok, I feel a lot blah. I could potentially have a baby right now if we had said yes to being profiled. I know that agreeing to being profiled doesn't mean there would have been a match but there was a possibility. The up and down is worse than I thought it would be. I thought that after the homestudy and education classes this part would be a little easier. Not sure why I thought that, but it's not.And here's what turned my crappy-ass Monday morning into a better day. I received this e-mail from a friend of mine whom I haven't seen since the summer.
I'm trying to get psyched up for a baby shower in a couple of weeks but I don't want to go. All of our friends will be there and I feel like we've been avoiding them so it's the perfect opportunity to show our faces and remind them we're still alive and kicking. Guess I have to get over myself.
We are renting a condo in the mountains and it's turning out to be a crappy snow year! WTF. El Ni.no better kick it into high gear, and quickly.
S thinks the pumps in our heating system are starting to fail and are making some interesting (and loud) bonks, bangs and whistling sounds throughout the house. Here's the good thing about this scenario, at least he's a heating/ventilation/air conditioning engineer. There's a shiny new boiler in our garage just waiting to be installed after the heating season. FX'd we make it a couple more months.
I was thinking about you and S the other day and wanted to know if you guys wanted a baby shower. I would be happy to throw you one. We could do it before or after you know you are becoming parents. It is totally up to you. Regardless of how you become parents it is an exciting time and you should celebrate it. Let me know what you want do to and we can start planning it or hold off for awhile. It is your call.