Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Kicking off ICLW

Hey ICLW'ers,

If you're new to my blog here's the lowdown...and a little bit of a brain dump

My husband (S) and I are going to celebrate our 8th wedding anniversary this year. About 7 years ago we laughed at our friends who got pregnant right away after getting married and figured we had all the time in the world. So, one trip to France, one new house, one master's degree, one Professional Engineering license, and two jobs later...we decided to TTC. Of course we started at a time which would guarantee I wouldn't be 8 months pregnant in August because that sucks. Boy howdy is that funny now! A year later I was diagnosed with unexplained infertility. Like seriously, no fucking clue why I wasn't getting pregnant. We did 3 IUI's before deciding to adopt. Currently we're on a list and have been waiting over 9 months (see ticker on my sidebar that I have because I'm maso.chistic that way) for a match.

It's been a rough ride emotionally which has affected all other aspects of my life. Getting excited about anything is really tough these days. We took one last big vacation last November to the Carrib.bean and lo and behold, we get to take another one last big vacation this summer since we're moving up the list rather slowly. The funny thing about the one last big vacation is people with kids are kind of jealous that we can still take off and do this stuff, but we'd trade the chance to fly anywhere in the world just to have a baby.

We are so ready.

Oh this is rich

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