Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Oh this is rich

I just posted a comment on a blog and the word I got for comment moderation was:



Enough hilarity...

Yesterday morning at 5:10am I was woken up by my phone ringing.  It was the 6am instructor who got hit by a stomach bug and there was no way she'd be able to teach, you know, unless she could run to the bathroom every 10 minutes which isn't so conducive to a Jaz.zercise class.  So, being the good, dependable friend that I am, I dragged myself out of bed and taught the class for her.  In class was a woman  I haven't seen for several months, who, as it turns out is pregnant.  This is after being told her FSH levels are so high she shouldn't even use her own eggs on an IVF cycle, or if she did she had a 5% chance of success and naturally she had a 1% chance of success.  They were still temping/timing, had just gotten through the fertility work-up and as it turns out proved her RE totally wrong.  So that was pretty cool, and I couldn't be annoyed when she pulled out the "Who knows, bam, you might get pregnant after you adopt" because statistically I have a better chance of getting pregnant naturally than she did.

This leads me to a question....why is it that the 1%'ers are the ones who end up conceiving naturally?  A friend of mine was told she had virtually no chance due to cysts and endo and whatever else could cram itself into her reproductive area.  She got pregnant about 6 months into their adoption wait.  I think my chances are something like 5-10%.  We aren't TTC, I'm just always curious about these stories, and they hardly start with, "The doctor couldn't figure out what was wrong..."  Usually there's a reason found for the infertility and then the couple beats all odds. 

What If...

Kicking off ICLW