Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Vacation - FINALLY

Big Island, here we come!

How is it that our vacations are now constituting baby moons?  At least they do in my head.  It's the overwhelming need/want to take a kick-ass somewhere-exotic vacation.  Never mind that 2 years ago, a road trip around southwest CO was just dandy.  It doesn't cut it right now.

S and I sync'ed up our schedules yet again to try to find a week for vacation.  One in which neither one of us would come back from vacation only to find ourselves royally screwed and working like a dog to catch up.  It went a little something like this:

S:  Middle to the end of August is bad, I have a final design due, not enough help, blah blah blah...
Me: Middle to the end of August is wide open!
S:  What about Sept?
Me: Mandatory-can't-move meeting second week of Sept.  Site visit 3rd or 4th week of Sept.  Then we're into Oct.  Fuck.

So, you say, what's wrong with Oct?  Well, my cousin's wedding is in Oct and we're already booked for that.  It'll be fun but I'm a touch frustrated by the fact we keep ending up taking a vacation to the east on get this:  The same exact week in Oct.  It'll be our third time.  Fun yes, but the beaches are a little chilly.  :)

Ok, so why don't we wait until Oct to just take vacation?  S has use or lose vacation meaning his company gives him so many weeks a year and if he doesn't use them all up then they don't carry over to the next year.  Lame.  So, we have a week in Oct locked up for the wedding/family stuff.  Need to use at least another week.  Plus, after Oct. I'm especially leery of planning any trips.  At that point we'll be in "really, seriously, a match could come up at any time" territory. 

Which brings us back to the present.  The only week we could coordinate.  First week of August.  Then comes the next question, where do we want to go?  Living in a landlocked state always makes me want to go to a beach.  Aaaannddd, while I like road trips (it was one idea), I see in our future many, many road trips, 'cause we won't have the money to do anything else.  Originally I thought we might re-create our honey moon trip and go back to Haw.aii for our 10-year but at this point we'll have a toddler for our 10-year. I'm thinking a nice dinner out will be difficult to swing, forget travel.  The decision?  What the hell, we have disposable income still (haha), let's do it!

There you go.  A little look into my head the past 3 days.  It's exhausting being me.

10 days to go!  And 3 reports to finish.  It's going to be a working kind of weekend.

p.s.  I have not forgotten about the shower but I want to ...wait for pictures! and haven't had time.  I know my mention earlier wasn't so positive but it was good.  At least my friends tell me they had fun - it's the weird family dynamics that did me in.

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