Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Flabbergasted. And Not in a Good Way

I was kicked off my book club.


I e-mailed my connection to the club (Nice Girl) because there had been a flurry of e-mails a few weeks ago about setting up another meeting.  I should back up.  I wasn't on the original list of invitees.  Nice Girl had noticed that I wasn't on the list and assumed it was a mistake.  So, she added me and I saw the replies coming through.  Nothing looked out of the ordinary.  Cut to today when I realized I don't know the date of the meeting and it should be occurring sometime soon.  I e-mailed Nice Girl and here is her reply:

Hey Geochick!
We had book club last week.  Sorry to be the one to break the news to you but we have decided to continue book club without you.  Seems there are some clashes in personality with you and some of the other girls.
-Nice Girl

 It may be important to note that I had no inkling of "personality clashes".  I have no idea what she's talking about.  I mean, I was the outsider to a group of friends, but the club only meets every few months, not a big deal to me even though I'm the one who has to sit through their chatter about matters I know nothing about.  Whatever, I can't even speculate what happened.  All I know is that I feel like a chump, dense and stupid.

Has this ever happened to you?

p.s.  Yes, I said I wouldn't be back until I had something nice to say but this was too much to stuff down and try to ignore as I've been doing with my frustrations related to the holiday season/waiting.

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