Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Number 14

The latest update is that we're No. 14 - good news!

Revisiting the math so far.... I calculated that if the pace stayed the same we'd be No. 15 in January 2011.

Yep.  Crazy in my head doesn't begin to explain the frustration that it's taken this long.  Then again, you're already privy to my crazy head.

Anyway, I talked to our caseworker and (recently) matching has been easy and as a result, the families higher in the list than us are being matched.  The three I know about now are Nos. 2, 3 and 9 (one of those is a successful match and the other two are pending.)  So, the upshot is, our profile has rarely been shown.  As we get higher in the list tons of fears about our video and letters have come to the surface.  What if they suck?  What if our letters are too long?  What if I come off as a bitch or cold?  I tend to, at least in certain situations even if I'm not feeling particularly bitchy.  It's a hazard of being an introverted thinker in an extroverted touchy-feely world.  But, not to worry....yet.  I've been reassured that if we were getting turned down by several parents that our caseworker would let us know.  Let's just hope it doesn't come to that.

In super-duper-awesome news, Claire posted a comment to me that they got a phone call today!  Whooopeee!

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