I called the agency for an update on Friday afternoon but our caseworker was out of the office. She didn't call me yesterday which is unusual as she is typically prompt. So, I obsessed about why she isn't calling me back all afternoon. We'll see what today brings.
S finished painting the walls of the nursery last night. After we get the trim done we'll put the furniture in the room. I'm supposed to be choosing a fabric for valances or curtains for my mom to make but as you can see from the past weeks, I've been in a funk. I'm not excited about decorating right now. S however is literally 2 months behind me emotionally. In October/November I was all atwitter about getting stuff done and decorating and putting furniture together. Today, I could care less. S is the the one all freaked out about hurrying to get everything in order. At least one of us is pushing forward at any one time even if the other is over it.
I've got a pretty bad attitude at the moment. I don't feel like we're ever going to get matched. I've spent a whole lot of the last few years angry and am finally moving into apathy. Not acceptance, mind you, apathy.