Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

I Gave up a Project and Other Random Thoughts

Yesterday I gave up a project that starts in two weeks.  It's six months long and difficult to push the schedule if needed so I had to let it go.  It's all kinds of frustrating to not know when something will happen, but to know that there's a really good chance that when I'm supposed to be at a dam site the first week of May I'll be on leave (I hope!).  It was stressful to tell my supervisor that I didn't think it would be a good idea for me to start on the project, especially knowing that we're understaffed as it is.  Luckily someone else has room in their schedule to switch and I'll take over his project which starts in July.  Hopefully I'm right and I'll be back from leave then. 

I have another project starting in June, sort of.  It's a construction project and I really want to train to take it over when the current engineer retires in a year or two so I'm supposed to go to a meeting in June.  If I'm on leave I'll have to go to the meeting anyway because there's no way to schedule it around me.  S has already said he'll take a few days to stay with future-baby if I have to go.  This work-life balance thing feels tenuous already.  How do single parents do it?

Did you hear about the latest study on infertility and stress?  How they now think there's no link between the two?  Well, duh, I could've told you that.  How many IVF cycles are relaxing and soothing?  I have friends who think that because I'm "stressed" (I'm not really, just type A) I can't get pregnant.  Yeah, here's my FB post from yesterday:
"New study shows NO link between infertility and stress. All the people who think I can't get pregnant because I'm stressed can suck it!"


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