What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.
We met with C and her caseworker yesterday at a very busy Star.bucks. It felt a little weird, because we were an odd looking group, but that's probably just me, and everyone around us was probably more concerned with coffee. C was super excited to see and hold X. She's still shy around us, which can make conversation difficult especially since neither S nor I are fantastic conversationalists unless the other person is more extroverted. Her caseworker is really good at keeping the conversation going and prompting C with subjects they've already discussed, or asking us questions that she knows C wants to know the answers to. When her caseworker left the table I found myself casting around for anything to keep the conversation going so that we didn't just sit there in silence. I'm sure it'll get easier with time, as any relationship does.
C is meeting regularly with her caseworker and I think we'll have another visit coming up in a couple of months.