Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Danger! Danger! Hazardous Conditions Ahead... *edited*

I wish I had a big blinking red sign in front of my face before I posted a note on F-B tonight.

I posted a slightly edited version of this post .  Why?  Because I can't fucking believe I am still getting the "adopt and you'll get pregnant" bullshit from people around me.  People who know me.  People whom I've shut down more than once on the subject.  In other words, not the average acquaintance.

Apparently a friend of ours was super offended by my post.  She wrote this comment.  "I agree Geo-chick.  I mean, how dare people wish good things for you, even if they are merely misinformed?  Of course there is no other way to view these statements than as put downs."

I deleted her comment from my wall.  I don't want to leave it up there partially because it has the potential to start some back and forth with other F-B friends.

I don't know what's going on with her and her husband right now.  A couple weeks ago, I invited them over to our house for dinner and they accepted.  We're trying to keep in touch, albeit in a different way (no more Friday happy hours), but it's definitely one-sided.  They haven't asked us, the ones with the baby over to their house, we had to cook dinner for them.  Whatever.

*Let the fun continue 8/18*

We're having a belated b-day party for S this weekend.  This particular friend whom I've apparently pissed off to no end, has now decided she's not attending the party.  She did not bother to contact me, she just changed her reply on the Ev-ite.  Teensy problem.  She was supposed to make S's cake. I don't know if the cake is a) showing up with her husband, or b) not showing up with her husband, or c) her husband is also not showing up and as such, no hope of cake.

Oh, and I deleted my original post on F-B too.  Guess I shouldn't offend any other friends with my journey through infertility and adoption.  Must be careful around them, and be very very careful that I don't make them mad.  Maybe I'll start acting giddy and saying "I hope so!" every time they make some stupid-ass comment about me getting pregnant.  Oooh, I'm raging mad just thinking about it!

Guess I'm baking a cake tomorrow.

In Less Than One Week

Continuing to Tiptoe...