Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

You Know When You Eat Something You Shouldn't?

...and then, when you're having a massive sugar rush, you feel like your head is going to explode, you can't concentrate and you're cursing your lack of willpower?

Or is that just me?

Right now. 

The lure of cake and ice cream got me today at work.  Now, I KNOW I'm supposed to severely limit sugar for health reasons.  It's nothing really major, just my tendency to get certain types of woman-specific infections.

I think that for the last 6 months, I've had this running conversation in my head wherein I tell myself that I am going to stop eating sugar for a week (not including beer and wine, you think I'm crazy?) and it'll help me kick the craving.  And, one day or two days goes well, then the next day it all falls apart.  Then the internal berating begins.  I mean, after all I managed to restrict sugar for a few years, even fruit, I felt great, and easily maintained my weight, and no longer had blood sugar crashes.  Now, I still don't eat that much, but it's definitely more lax than a couple years ago.  And I can tell the difference, especially in my struggle to maintain weight, and the occasional blood sugar crash that leaves me shaky and stupid.  But, it's still so difficult to get through the initial week or two.  Especially when free ice cream and cake are beckoning.

Maybe tomorrow?

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