Hi, I’m Geochick.

Welcome to my blog. What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy and spiritual awakening. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Being the "Been There Done That" Chick at the Table

As I've mentioned before, some of my closer friends are beginning their journey to start families.  One is successfully pregnant, others have not been having the easiest time of it.  They seem to hear their biological clocks ticking LOUDLY, they look at me and worry that they will turn out the same.  (i.e. infertile).

I'm there for support, and advice, yet I'm left out of the conversation.  Instead, they share their trials and tribulations with each other, and ask each other questions, and I feel oddly out.  I tend to  butt in, because I've lived it!  I know what the first fertility work-up appointment is like!  I can tell you all about temping and POAS and acupunture and IUIs!  It's probably annoying.

Not to mention, what happens when they all end up pregnant?  Because, it's likely that they don't have major issues and that they will be able to get pregnant (statistically speaking since no one has hit the magical 1-year TTC mark yet).  I told S today that I don't think I can hang while they are pregnant.  What the hell am I going to do?  Have dinner, down a couple glasses of wine and nod my head while they talk about various pregnancy doo-dads and whats-its.  I don't know shit about being pregnant.  And I don't care how many mutual interests we have, I can guarantee that if they all end up pregnant at the same time, they will talk about nothing else.  It's just how it is, right?

Tying Up the Loose Ends and ICLW