Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

On the Adoption Waiting Front

The update for June came yesterday.  We are still at position No. 10 on the waiting list, so if they've had placements, they've all been people who are lower than us on the list.  I kind of hate knowing that.

Our caseworker is going on maternity leave, which means that once again we are being shuffled around to another caseworker.  When we were waiting for X, we started with caseworker A, she left the state, so we got caseworker B, caseworker B left the state a few months after we met her, and we ended up with caseworker C.  Then caseworker A came back to the agency and we ended up back with her.  This time, we are actually being handed over to the former director of the agency, who was C's counselor and helped facilitate our meetings the first year we knew C.  So, I actually feel good about this switch.  We already know her, and we chose this agency largely based on her presentation at the informational meeting we had.  Besides, we need to be treated with kid gloves given what we've been through the last year.

I think our profile is out right now as there was a hint that there may be something coming up soon, but she didn't want to tell us details unless we ask.  We know better at this point to ask for details, and had specifically told her not to tell us when we are being profiled.  I don't know which way is better.  Way back in February we knew we were being profiled a couple of times, but nothing came of those and the anxiety waiting to hear about whether we were moving forward was horrible.  So, I think we'll just take the big hint and try not to think about it, and just wait for the phone to ring for real.  When she starts dropping hints like this, it usually means that something is going to come up in the next couple of weeks.

It's pretty sad that I've been through this enough times that I can analyze all the past profilings and matches and know what's going on without asking questions.

Another Update - Baby N

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