Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.


Naming a baby is difficult.  We had it easy with X as C named him, and it so happened that his name was on our list as a very late addition.  It's a cool name, we have grown to love it, and can't imagine him with any other name.

Naming this baby is beyond difficult.  Three years ago, this is what our refrigerator looked like:

Most of these names have now been placed firmly in the No category.  Some of these I don't like, or he doesn't like, or we both don't like.  So, this list is kaput, gone, start over.

As we've delved into other names, it seems to go like this:  Me:  What about Damian?  S: NO.  Me: What about Finn?  S:  NO.  


I've turned to Duana on Lainey Gossip for inspiration.  I've combed through lots of her back articles, looking for boys names, and I've even submitted a question to her in hopes that she answers it.  It's helped give me some ideas to present to S.  

I've also gotten crazy on Nameberry.  Searching through lists, trying names on for size. Wondering if I would condemn a kid to a life of teasing or "ew".  There's a list now, maybe there's a name in there? I have one that has stuck in my head since I first considered it, and now I'm thinking of the theoretical baby as ______.  Every other name I come across is a second or third, or....yeah, no.  S doesn't have a favorite.   I think he's waiting to meet the baby before he really lands on a name.  At least I hope that's the reason he can't seem to form an opinion.

I wonder if it would have been easier if I had been pregnant and we spent several months considering names, vs. being on the hook for a phone call that we may have a baby soon.  


2nd Meeting...Not so Good?