Update on Waiting and Worrying

I called for an update this afternoon.  Plan is still in place, and J is miserable physically.  There wasn't much change at her doctor's appointment today.

It eases the worrying, which I fully understand is goddamn selfish of me to say.  Yay, she's moving ahead with not raising her child?  I gagged writing that.  Except, that's my position, right?  It's a rather untenable position once you start exploring all sides of adoption and learning what it means for all members of the triad.  I am the privileged one.  I am the so-called savior.  *GAG*

Anyway, still freaking the f-ck out over here, just with less dread I guess.