Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

#MicroblogMonday - Counting Down

I go back to work in 3 weeks. In 2 weeks, we start Baby Z in full-time daycare. How the time has flown by! Everyone I meet asks if I love my time off and staying at home. My answer has been yes and no. It's so much busier this time than when I stayed home with X. I took leave starting at the beginning of December, so it was all about the holidays for a month, then my grandfather passed away and that added busy-ness to the schedule as we hosted my brother's family at our house for a few days and had to deal with all that family stuff. Baby Z is older than X was, so he's more work to take care of (newborns are freakin' easy y'all), and he doesn't nap for long periods of time. So, yes, I love that I was able to take this time off and I have kept X home from daycare a few times to go on playdates or just hang out, but at the end of those days I wonder why I bothered because I'm exhausted from wrangling both of them all day by myself. I found myself frustrated by this a few weeks ago, and wondered when my lazy days were going to show up, and then I realized that they aren't. Once or twice a week, I'll have a day with no plans and can laze around the house in my sweats, but it isn't the norm.

Better get used to that.

In good news, if I so choose and we can do it financially, I could go to part time work and my retirement wouldn't be affected. Hooray for taking forever to have kids!!? I guess it allowed us to sock away a lot of savings for retirement, so that's a silver lining.

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