Hi, I’m Geochick.

Welcome to my blog. What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy and spiritual awakening. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

Reflections on 2015

I've been purposely quiet about the holidays on my blog. They were ok. The day that S and I managed to go skiing was awesome. Our annual fondue dinner on Christmas Eve and Christmas morning were my favorites over the past week. Running around to parents and in-laws was exhausting, emotionally and physically.

Taking stock of the year:

  • I decide to ride a 100 miles on my bicycle and start training in my basement, graduating to the great outdoors in the spring. The metric century in June goes well and I'm energized and motivated. Thus begins a long summer of squeezing in training rides twice a week. Thank goodness for an understanding husband and a pretty awesome network of bike trails around town.
  • We finalize Baby Z's adoption in April. All the family building is over and we are able to move on with our lives instead of feeling stuck in a loop.
  • I go back to therapy, and a new therapist. It doesn't go well at first, and takes several sessions before I'm comfortable. Here at the end of the year I am finally coming around to the idea that my parents will never meet my emotional needs, and that being assertive about my needs doesn't mean things will magically get better. The more I delve into my family dynamics the more I'm blown away that I am able to cultivate empathy for others and hold meaningful relationships. My whole life I've been wary of other people, hiding the real me behind a wall. I know I've written about it before, but I'm finding that it takes a shit ton of work to dismantle that wall.
  • S's grandmother passes away after years of dementia. It's sad, expected, and somewhat of a relief.
  • Parks and Recreation ends and I'm sad.
  • I get over it.
  • X's half brother is born and we see less of C because, you know, new baby and working...
  • Baby Z has multiple ear infections and gets tubes. Then he gets a staph infection. Then he inhales kerosene.  Raising him is turning out to be a bit on the challenging side. But he sure is happy when he's happy. And opinionated, and difficult to redirect. (I wish I was 10 years younger for this one)
  • X goes through "the change". The one where he graduates from super cute tyke, to slightly annoying older kid. He's as tall as some 6 year olds and vocal as all get out. He's also learning the art of negotiation and manipulation. Keeps us on our toes. (And he's still cute to me except when throwing a tantrum over sleeping in his bed. Our different tactics have not stuck so...we give up)
  • We go to Indian-Nepalese Heritage Camp for the first time.
  • We start researching schools for X and make choosing a diverse school a priority.
  • I get a new job, and the furthest I have to move is 2 floors. That was easy!
  • I swear I'm going to start reading more...then barely manage to read the book for my book/wine club. Maybe next year?
  • Budgets. Mint continues to yell at me every month.

What was your year like?

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