While I've waffled a lot over whether to keep blogging, and recommitted every time, it's time to listen to what I need. I have so many transitions occurring now that it's time to step away for real. Blogging has become something I "should" do rather than something I "want" to do.
I've been in my new job for a couple of months and it has become apparent that I need serious work in the realm of Emotional Intelligence. It intersects with the work I'm doing I therapy on vulnerability and shame. I feel intense pressure to get my reactions and approach under control (I roll my eyes a lot I've been told, too aggressive, and interrupt). I told my supervisor that I want to go as high as I can in the organization, and she is suggesting that if I really work on this aspect, that there will be nothing to stop me. Coupled with that I need to work on my personal relationships and learn how to be vulnerable. S is the only person who really gets to witness Geochick minus the walls. Of course, I also need to work on parenting the exact opposite way that I was parented.
There's a lot on my plate and some things have to go. I hope to be back in the future.
Meanwhile, when you're driving and pass road cyclists, think of how much you like that Geochick person who blogs and give them 3-ft of room.