Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

#MicroblogMondays - A New Look, A New Pattern, A New Focus

Hey, welcome to the new look! For supposedly being easy, this was ridiculously difficult despite “just” changing a template and tweaking it. Anyway, I’m relatively pleased with how this turned out and hopefully it’s easier to find things given I’ve been blogging for years upon years at this point!

Over the weekend S and I went to a 3-hour mindful meditation class, which was much needed. There’s only so far I could go with trying to use an app or doing it on my own. Which is to say, not far. Trying to learn that way didn’t really lead me to start a practice. This class did, and the instructor was the perfect person who attracted the perfect class for us. It was a small class, but within that class more than half of us were techie/engineering types including the instructor. So, hey, usually a good thing for me to have someone who understands my career and mindset to help me broaden my scope. Her approach, keeping it secular and very focused on the “how to” plus practicing plus sharing really helped me be able to commit.

Which brings me to my pattern. I have been so frustrated by my inability to make my part-time work schedule into a good pattern or routine. During the meditation class as I wondered out loud how to integrate this into my schedule when some mornings I want to take a 5:45am class that I can barely get to on time and some mornings I don’t have to be anywhere, the instructor talked about setting a pattern in the morning, and that idea resonated with me. Also, I realized that since I’ve figured out I can’t take a day off of work, I just have too many meetings that pop up, I can structure my shorter days (4- 5hr, 1- 4hr) to leave time for all those things I thought about doing leading to my desire to work part time. Starting this week (even with travel) I’m incorporating a new pattern in the mornings and generally going to the office to start my work day at 9:30am. I’m going to stick to it for a month - Wake up, coffee, 5-second journal, meditate, workout, write or volunteer stuff, get ready and go to work. What I’ve found is that if this stuff isn’t done in the morning, it doesn’t get done. My afternoons after work consist of 2x a week picking X up early for therapy appointments and 1x a week getting him and his friend after swim practice. So, on those afternoons where I don’t need to be somewhere at 3 or 4 for kid stuff, I’m fitting my own appointments in. I have to be strict about it, or I’ll start to fall into the trap I’ve been in for months where I use all my free time for other to-dos and I’m not really getting what I want to be done, done.

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