I’ve done fairly well with meditating every day since the workshop, even with travel disrupting my routine. Now, the actual act of meditation? Oh, it’s all kinds of fun in my head, I’ll start off focusing on breathing, and the next thing I know I’m running through imaginary conversations that are likely never going to happen the way I’m imagining. Or happen at all. Several times I’ll come back to the meditation and that’ll work for a minute, then my brain is off and running again. Finally, time is up, all 10 minutes of it and with a mixed sense of relief and slight frustration it’s time to get on with my day.
It’s a baby practice that’s for sure. The type of meditation we were taught in the workshop is mindfulness mediation - nothing other than silence, eyes open with a soft gaze to the floor. Rita taught 4 types within that: breath, body-scan, loving-kindness and walking. The body scan and practicing the loving-kindness meditation both help keep me focused and the worst one is just sitting there and noticing my breath. I still go off and running into in the middle of a body-scan though, which is kind of hilarious when I’m trying to remember if I was focused on my wrist or arm or still on legs? once I managed to get back.
practice practice practice….right? It’ll never be perfect.