“You’re flooding yourself, stop it!”
A friend said that to me this past weekend. Someone who understands the work I’m doing and knows what can happen. She pointed out that I like to be wallowing, that’s where I’m comfortable. Well, that’s food for thought.
And, Dr. M is starting to show more interest in me and offering advice. Also leading to flooding. I need to shut him down because it’s only going to lead to more discomfort for me. Sometimes I hear people question why do things have to be defined, and in a box? I’ll tell you why, because in a care setting, the boundaries have to be clear so that the patient feels comfortable. Dr. M asking me about how I feel about myself and then offering an example of his own journey isn’t appropriate. I hire him to work on my back to teach my body to release tension and to break my protective patterns. That’s what I need him for.
I wish I was figuring out this stuff on my own, because I know I rely on external sources to help me too much, but I needed that from my friends this past weekend. And that’s why I need them. Because they will call me out when they see what I can’t.
Boy am I glad I have a therapy appointment this week.