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Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

#MicroblogMondays - Listen To My Friends

“You’re flooding yourself, stop it!” 

A friend said that to me this past weekend. Someone who understands the work I’m doing and knows what can happen. She pointed out that I like to be wallowing, that’s where I’m comfortable. Well, that’s food for thought.  

And, Dr. M is starting to show more interest in me and offering advice. Also leading to flooding. I need to shut him down because it’s only going to lead to more discomfort for me. Sometimes I hear people question why do things have to be defined, and in a box? I’ll tell you why, because in a care setting, the boundaries have to be clear so that the patient feels comfortable. Dr. M asking me about how I feel about myself and then offering an example of his own journey isn’t appropriate. I hire him to work on my back to teach my body to release tension and to break my protective patterns. That’s what I need him for.

I wish I was figuring out this stuff on my own, because I know I rely on external sources to help me too much, but I needed that from my friends this past weekend. And that’s why I need them. Because they will call me out when they see what I can’t.  

Boy am I glad I have a therapy appointment this week. 

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Soul Speaks Week 3

Move Forward, Slide Back