Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.

#MicroblogMondays - Depression

The past week, I’ve been in the thick of it, vacillating between 4-5, to the point that S finally looked at me the other night and told me the way I’ve been beating myself up is painful to watch. I wish when people said that it would actually sink in. Sometimes it does, and I can turn around, but sometimes I’ll sink deeper. It’s been a rough week, and I’m deep into the “I can’t fix myself fast enough” mantra in my head. It started after staffing the weekend, where I started to feel like I’m not making any progress, comparing myself to others.

I know some of this is because I’m not medicated anymore. I’ve definitely felt the valleys more intensely since being off medication, and at the same time I could feel like shit when I was on medication so….who knows what the hell is going on.

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