Hi, I’m Tara.

What started out as a private blog to document our adoption journey has evolved into my journey through therapy, spiritual awakening and whatever I feel like writing. Without our struggles to build a family, I’m not sure I’d be waking up, and for that I’m grateful.


It’s been a few months since I decided to stop fighting long enough to listen and dragged myself to a 2 hour meeting.

…and then that weekend happened and it was just a little bit eye-opening.

….and then I thought it was an awesome idea to volunteer staff a weekend.

…and then I was depressed for summer vacation. (sounds like a country song title)

…and then I came out of the depression fast. Like, it only lasted a week’ish this time.

….and then I started to really pay attention to what came up for me when I staffed the weekend. That’s important because those things triggered the depression.

…and then I realized one of the ways I self-sabotage is confusion. If I’m confused all the time, I don’t need to move forward. It’s pretty damn comfy in Confusionville.

…and then I realized how much I’ve been resisting.

I’m tired of resisting what I’m drawn to.

….and so…surrender.

Soul Speaks - Session 6

A Spiral, Not a Wheel